you’re happy with her now. You were right, we’re at two different points of our lives and living in two different worlds. I was down to meet you halfway, and ride for you. But you have to get your head straight. I’m young and yes I do have time, but not time to wait for something that at this point, will never happen. I’ll be real with you, I waited. I knew you were doing me wrong, but I stuck around because I wanted to prove to you that not everything in this world is a disappointment, and there are people that aren’t all about drama and bullshit. I liked to keep things simple with you, I liked making you smile even when it was YOU that was in the wrong. But I kept my head up, I stayed ignorant with the situation for our sake because I was waiting for you to make the right choice. I didn’t want to ever give you heat because I had the utmost faith you would learn from your mistakes, and take into consideration how bad it hurt me. I kept my head up, because I had my shit to handle, I had my life to tend to and I didn’t want to project any wasted emotions on something I knew I could easily ignore.
Since the beginning, you promised me that “call” and you’d forget…or you just couldn’t call because situations arise…and now you promised me again..and like before you left me hanging. But this time I’m not brushing it off. You told me to wait. I’ve been waiting for almost a year now, and yes all the times we had were great but they were in vain…because there’s nothing it amounts too but a high ..that quickly came down. I didn’t want to be your girlfriend. I didn’t want the label, I didn’t want the expectations. I simply wanted the fact to be respected and recognized in your life as somebody of importance and not some type of “choice” you could run to. I was in the wrong for allowing myself to stay, so it’s not all your fault.
I’m not mad. I’m not sad. I’m disappointed in myself for believing something could ever happen. So tell her she wins. I don’t want any part of this anymore. I’m moving on with my life, because I am not one to live in my past.
But my advice to you. You’re a great guy, you have a lot of things going for you. But the way you’re living, so much shit is holding you back. Learn to let go, and I promise you everything will fall into place. Goodbye old friend.
the fashion guru
Allow me to shed some light on the situation.. I'm a broke materialistic college student double majoring in Health Management and Fashion Merchandising, part time fashion designer, and full time MILF. That's pretty much the story of my life. I tend to come off as a bitch, which is true for the most part.. But once you get to know me, I'm the easiest person to get along with. I swear.
There are times that I can be selfish and self-absorbed. I rarely compromise unless it's going my way. I believe that relationships (whether it be friends, family, boyfriends etc) should based on loyalty. I always give people the benefit of the doubt because everyone deserves a chance.. but once it's challenged, I will never see the person the same way again. And no, I don't give a fuck about being a bitch.
There are times that I can be selfish and self-absorbed. I rarely compromise unless it's going my way. I believe that relationships (whether it be friends, family, boyfriends etc) should based on loyalty. I always give people the benefit of the doubt because everyone deserves a chance.. but once it's challenged, I will never see the person the same way again. And no, I don't give a fuck about being a bitch.
I hope
